i am followed by a distinct inability to accept your absence. that is all i can say.
i swear, the handful of places we were together became holy for me. became a mourning ground.
once, we went to a sports bar and you were eating and i wasnt. we were watching a hockey game on TV. we didnt know what the hell was going on in the game but we noticed people cheering and clapping. so we joined in but our only signpost were the people around us. when we heard them start to get excited, we’d high five like we were the biggest fans there.
that was the best part of you jamer. we could pretend together. create a little universe.
anyway, i dont believe you’re gone. i believe you’re sitting in front of me right now. beside me. everyfuckingday.
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